the happiness vs the sadness

so imature.
2 words but it's enough to explain what I did.
I'm 22 years old but the same as 6 years old kid.
this week, the happiness and the sadness came into my mind similarly..
the happiness.. it's something about my career and the effect with my neighbors people..
the sadness, some of them came from my happiness.. and some of them cause what I'd done..
surprisingly.. the similarity about my emotion was dominated by the sadness recently..
the week has not finished yet.. I wish the happiness would win the game..
I don't wanna be jail by my stupid selfish which is not so immature..
I love u Ma.. too much..
forgive me whose your stupid daughter really2 regrets for what she's been done.. heart u mom.. :'(

October Graduation

otw to Bandung..
and it feels so hommy..
today some of my friends have been graduated..
happy and proud for them..
congrats guys..
the imagination that we discussed ago, now one step ahead of the realization process..
the first days of the next five years that we have been walking inside..
goodluck guys.. the new stories have just began.. and each of we is the first actress and actor there..
For the Script Writer.. please give all of us the nice and sweet stories that we will enjoy there.. thanx for your kindness ;)

the new days.. the new plans..

I've learned many things..
like usually, l always try to get a postive thing for every step that I passed.
Like a several hours a go..
I've just lost my job for the very first time..
sad? not really.
it feels like U have dumped a big Rock on your mind to a deep blue sea and maybe Allah gimme the opportunity to improve my self much more better on my preparation for getting a real job..
I believe God has brilliant plan fit on my best way...
today is the first day of being unemployment to me..
the plans has to drive..
hopefully the time will be useful..
hopefully it is the best way..
bismillahirahmanirahim..

step backward

malas bergerak..
terutama kalo inget senin itu 2 hari lagi..
yah..
gw lg gj..
biasalah kumat..
mood yang kadang2 ngumpul bisa kadang2 ilang juga..
sudah seharusnya manusia itu jalannya kedepan..
sudah sewajarnya yang namanya masa lalu itu..
dimasukin ke peti terus dibuang ke laut yang penghuninya cuma ikan bermata senter aja *tau namanya apa*
tapi namanya juga manusia..
suka nyari masalah..
udah tau laut kayak gitu tuh dalem..
udah tau dirinya ga bisa bernang..
tetep loh dya nyebur?!..
ahkahkahkahk*ketawa dengan perasaan bodoh*
petinya gw buka..
dan rasanya ternyata tidak bagus saudara2.

terimakasih.

The Land that I have to stay

Jakarta..

citra sudah pulang kembali ke Jakarta..
sebenernya pas awal bgt gw mw balik ke Jkt gw udh pgn nulis..
sedikit menye-menye tentang Bandung..
tapi karna kelamaan dan mood yang ga berkumpul..
mungkin akan gw ringkas aja.. ini utk semua makhluk Bandung yang menemani gw 4 thn terakhir..

THANKYOU for anyone whose supported me
and made my life so colourful for the last 4 years..
what I've received from you makes me more mature and gives me a learn about what the real life is..
untill this time I am writting it.. I still missing u guys.
missing about moments that we spent garbage-thoughts together..
missing about stupidity maestro and then we thought it so Genius..
missing about seriously moments which.. hmm.. maybe only 20 percents from a hundred percents that we spent everyday...
It's not easy to find someone like you..
or maybe i will find someone like you..
but it wouldn't promisses to have a precious moment the same as yours..
once again.. Thankyou a lot..
very much.. so much.. and too much.. :)


okay.. that's all about Bandung..
How about I begin my days in Jakarta?

hmmm..
The situation is not same..
The places is different the same as the people and the situation..
both of them is mine and me..
I shouldn't have a preferable..
the realize is this places that i have to way now..
so what is the problem?
the problem is.. I am so ego to them and reversable is approved.
my mind has been dominated with the things that I call with logical and rational..
maybe for several people it sounds like bullshit.. or maybe what they heard is true?
i don't know.

completely with the situation that I have been standing for adays..
it feels like volcanoes which it's ready to forcing out the stomach fills in.
it is too early for me to say I am tired..
i still need and have to pass it well..
maybe I should use my mind not my mouth to solve it all..
but when my brain likes already bored and stop it functions..
I only have my mouth to scream.

gw ngemeng apa sih?halah.

bandung i'm coming :)

fuuuuh..
akhirnya gw naik travel jg..
perjalanan ckup panjang..
karena banyak pertimbangan, gw putuskan utk pulang hari ini..
ga jadi kemaren :p

btw gw cut sebentar ceritanya..
ada ibu2 duduk di depan gw minta dijambak..
masa GORDEN gw ditarik semena2?????
minta ditendang dari belakang dia.. >:(
plantae.. plantae..
gw merasa kesabaran gw lg diuji.

hmmmm..
tarik nafas dulu..
redam emosi...
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuh...

balik ke cerita awal..
hari ini sebenarnya gw mw balik jam 9.30..
katanya bokap gw mw nganter hr ini..
trus dya lg ke bank sbentar critanya..
jam 9 dya blm dateng juga..
tunggu..
9.15 blm muncul juga.. gw telpon.
gw(g) : "Dad dimana?
bokap (d) : "Di bank.. lg ngantri.."
g : "putri mw balik jam 1/2 10 Dad.."
d : "iya ini masih ngantri.. tunggu sebentar ya.."
g : "tapi ini udah 9.15.. putri balik 1/2 10.."
d : "hah??? 1/2 10??!"
*kayaknya td gw udah bilang deh.. dududududu*
d : ya udah diundur aja deh put..jadi jam berikutnya.."

sebenernya gw td mw aja brangkat ke travel naik taksi..
tp berhub waktu udah mepet.. kayaknya ga akan sempet dulu mesen dsb..

yahsu.. gw nelp travel yang biasanya gw pake di fatmawati..
dia penuh aja sampe jam 1/2 12...
gw nelp travel lain di daerah pertok PI,, ok dia ada jam 10..
gw menunggu bokap gw lagi..
karna mikir dia bentar lg sampe..
lalalalalalalalalalalala..
jam 10 kurang beberapa menit bokap gw blm muncul juga..
gw telp.. dia masih terjebak antrian..
*gila ngapain juga sh orang2 di bank jam segini????*
sama seperti hal sebelumnya.. ga ada waktu bwt mesen taksi.

gw telp travel yang di PI lagi.. gw pesen yang jam 11..
nnnnnnnggggg... prepare for the worst..
gw booking juga travel yang di fatmawati bwt jam 1/2 12...

lalalalala.. bokap gw pun dateng jam 10. 35-an..
pokoknya gmn2 gw br brangkat jam 10.42..
*tancap gas dad!!!*
ada satu yang dilupakan.. ada kemacetan yang disebabkan lampu merah... -_-

11 kurang 5 (sama dengan 6 pastinya :p)
gw masih di lampu merah poins..
duuuuuh keburu ga yah???? gw telp travelnya..
mreka nungguin 5 menit lg...
ok.. mobil pun menuju pertok dan baru sampe jam 11.07..
harapan gw udah pupus.. tapi masih ngarep.. jadi maksain dateng..
pas lewat pertok.. gw mencari2 perwujudan tempat travel itu.. ternyata dia pindah ke PONDOK PINANG sodara-sodara!!!!
cantik sekali.

mobil pun berbalik arah ke fatmawati..
*keluar dr pertok gw ngeliat ada tukang es podeng dan gw mupeng..
tapi karna bukan saat yang tepat utk makan es podeng.. gw lupain niatan mupeng tersebut *
masih di daerah perumahan pondok indah..
bokap gw + gw lupa arah jalan balik..
dari puteran yang ditengah2 setiap jalan dimasukkin..
sempet terbawa kew arah pim..hahahaha gw siih seneng2 aja ..
akhirnya dengan perjuangan mati2an..
gw sampe di travel yang di fatmawati...
sedikit lebih tenang sebelom si ibu2 didwpan gw minta ditimpuk :(
hmmm..
gw ngantuklala..
sekian livereport dr cipularang :)

anril udah keluar

huihui..
i'm on the way to jkt..

hari ini gw abis melakukan ujian termalam di ITB..
sampe jam 1/2 7 br beres..
bukan hanya itu saudara2..
ujian ini sangatlah sulit.. lebih sulit dari anril, fisdas I A, dan PPKN sekalipun!!!!
yang paling melelahkan adalah di bagian tangan kanan *mungkin kalo gw kidal.. jadinya di tangan kiri*
gw harus nulis makalah bau tentang phk bau di kertas polio bau sebanyak 4 halaman dalam kurun waktu 2 jam..
say thx to Mr. C whose made my right hand got untaste..
*g brani nyebut nama lagi ah.. takut blog gw dikoprek dosen lagi.. kekekekek*
pernah tau istilah tong kosong nyaring bunyinya??
nah itulah isi dari lembar ujian gw td..
penuh dan ga berisi...
kekekkekekek...
:p

ouiya..
ini gw lagi di jalan menuju jkt loh..
mobile ceritanya..
ditemani chibibi salah satu belahan jiwaku selain prince charming...
kikikikikik...
tujuan gw kali ini pulang adalah minta restu dr mommy-daddy karna saya akan mengadakan seminar dalam 2 minggu ke depan..
mohon doanya dr semua..
mudah2an seminarnya lancar..
g ada masalah sama nilai2..
dan bisa diresmikan menjadi sarjana matematik bulan Juli nanti...
sekali lg semuanya..
doain yah...

oh ya.. semoga ntar nganggurnya ga lama2 :p

yahsu.. LED notif udah kelap-kelip minta di check..
chibi juga ngantuk..
mw bobo dulu yah...


jakarta i'm coming :)